Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Mixed Nuts
I am so looking forward to hearing news about our referrals, traveling to Russia and eventually bringing the girls home. We've been talking about this adoption for three years, and actively involved with the process for 1.5 years. But I have to admit that I've been having mixed feelings during our adoption wait.

Most of the time, I feel just like everyone else. I sit by the phone in anticipation. When the phone rings, and registers a local number ... my stomach jumps with excitement and I answer with a perky "hello". Of course it never turns out to be our agency but the thrill of the next call being "the call" has been really fun.

Our friends e and T said it best at our recent adoption support meeting.


When was the last time you were this excited about something? Even though it's hard to wait, sit back and enjoy these feelings.
We've been enjoying our quiet home, relatively easy life, long walks with Thani. Because we know that our turn will be soon.
But I also cannot stop thinking about the history which will create our happiness. There is nothing happy about what our children have gone through. They may have been born under unfortunate circumstances, raised in poverty / abuse / trying conditions, and then had to be removed from their homes. Since that time, they have had to live and learn without parents, in an orphanage, not knowing what their future might bring. I really wonder where our children are now, and what they are doing. I hope that they are dreaming of having new parents.
They don't know that we are waiting for them, hoping to get the call to learn who they are. Hoping to meet them and bring them home and just love them to pieces. I just can't wait to meet them. Hopefully we'll hear something soon.
11 Comments:
Blogger Deb said...
How long of a wait does your agency anticipate?

I'm glad you're excited and enjoying your time with just the 2 of you.

Blogger Jenni said...
Well said Tricia. I remember wondering many of the same things you described in your post, and also feeling conflicted about the situations that led to our kids being available for adoption in the first place. Adoption is not an easy road to take, but the destination is completely worth it!

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you get the call and are off to meet your children soon!

Blogger Maggie said...
Well said. I never managed to find any joy in my wait, and was always impressed with those who almost relished the wait.

Blogger Allison said...
As I was watching my 2-year-old sleep last night I was thinking about the same things - how blessed we are that he is part of our family but how I'm saddened by the circumstances that enabled him to be with us. As we sit here and wait for the phone call about our daughter I often envision her in the baby home, the only life she's known, and how much we're about to change her entire world. The end-result is well worth it but it must be such a scary journey for those little ones.
Praying you hear good news sooN!

Blogger sandy said...
Wow! Getting so close.... I hope it doesn't take too long, but yes, relish the quiet time now. =)

Blogger Unknown said...
It sounds like you are really preparing your heart. You know that life won't be as simple (and quiet) as it is now, but you are getting ready for that and excited about it. It is really amazing watching God's plan unfold in your life and we are so excited for you. Thanks for sharing your story with us. We will continue to pray that everything happens just as it is suppose to!

Blogger Rhonda said...
I can PROMISE you that your children are dreaming of parents. If they're old enough to understand it, they want a family. All of the children in the orphanages seem to. I remember how Bonnie was just sailing when she found out she was going to have parents. I cannot wait until you get a referral. This is so exciting!!

Blogger Ronda said...
Waiting for a referral seems like such a nebulous time. What age will they be, how will they act towards us, do they want parents? All these questions and a million more filled our heads as we waited. Some nights I would just sit in the nursery and try to imagine the reality of life with two little ones.

My imagination did not do them justice. As we wait between trips I can say that with certainty. Our children are so much more than I imagined and so much more a part of us already. We too are trying to find joy in these last few weeks (we hope) of quiet before the whirlwind hits. We've been in this process two years, including one agency change. The wait feels long especially now with their photos all around me.

Your referral will come and with it the joy of knowing their faces, their names, the smell of their soft little necks and the wonderful feel of their arms around you. Somehow that moment has made all the waiting a very small price. Your time will come soon and we will all rejoice in it with you.

Ronda

Blogger 6blessings said...
It's exciting to be waiting with you. I'm so thrilled that you are getting closer and closer.

Blogger Christen L said...
Good post. :)

Children are children. They are resilient and they use their imaginations A LOT better and more often then we boring adults do. I'm sure your children have both imagined, played, dreamed about meeting their parents. I hope they don't have to wait much longer. (and that you don't have to either)

Blogger Rachael said...
I found the wait between trips to be the hardest. Once you've met them, and it's a concrete person, and not just the idea of a person, it is much harder to enjoy the wait.
Glad you're making the most of this time...life will get really crazy soon for you guys and you might miss those long quiet walks with the dogs, so enjoy it now.
Well said post, by the way. I meant to respond earlier, but my computer at home wouldn't let me comment for some odd reason...so now I'm blogging at work (don't tell ;0).