In one week we went from no referrals to referrals to no referrals.

We do have two non-refundable tickets to Moscow on Aeroflot leaving next Saturday and $600 per night reservations in Moscow. Any takers?

It's been a tough week but we did get a practice run getting everything together for the eventual trip we'll make to Russia. I know what flights we want and how to get them. I know what hotel I want to book in Moscow. I have our stash of food items, travel supplies and games to take with us to the orphanage.

Yesterday was the toughest day so far during this journey. My head was pounding when I heard the news. My brain registered almost immediately that the trip wasn't going to happen. My emotions were so vivid and wide-ranging - everything from sadness to anger to betrayal to hopelessness.

This morning, it was tough to say to our agency director that we would not accept the referral of 3 girls. Without knowing any medical or birth family information or photos we just couldn't do it. I'm sure the events of yesterday (learning about the misinformation about our referrals) didn't help the situation but we did seriously consider both referral options.

0 to 2 is going to be tough for us and we want to make sure we get that right. We are prepared to wait if that's what it takes. We definitely made the right decision for us. We would happily consider another referral from NN. Let's see what happens next....